i have cried, i have struggled the dog has ate everything i managed my daughter was sad she didnt't like her new school she thought she hadnt made any friends i had her party right after daddy left and invited the girls remember the crop circles but she still wanted out of this school and back to the other so i called and i called and made it work i got her on a list and i begged the principal to take my girl back she knew she was a good student so she approved it thank heavens i switched the boys schools i hate the schools i got phone calls everyday i was picking my son up from school i did doctors appointments and had to start giving my son drugs i hate them still i don't want to give them i give in i give them now i fight for my son i get him diagnosed the teachers still dont understand i think i am going to move him to a new school and i change my mind again i survive a few holidays i hate them as it is because all of my family is far away and i wish i could be with them i shop for christmas i amaze myself i did a good job but not as good as my husband and i think it went well lets ask the kids so then it's the new year no big deal not too thrilled midnight done lets make it throught the year i trudge on a little bit more january is gone and my husband turns 35. then i have a scare my mother and stepmother and my new nephew are all in the hospital my mother was fine she thought it was a heart attack my new nephew aspirated and he fin my step mother has just survived lung cancer and they took half a lung she is stressed and over stressed they just sold the house it was too big for her to care for and my father with alzheimers and she needs more rest my sister i love her she's younger than i she met a captain in the navy and loved him for a minute she moved to florida and then high tailed and left it but out of it all she got pregnant with a boy she has a daughter now who is almost a teen they are all far away i wish i was close but some who are closer dont even care as much as i do and i cant even be there i have one sister now who with all the scare and the new year has decided to try hard and be there for them so i did it again i made it through that then to think i finally get a helper for my son in his classroom she is there for him and helps him and no more phone calls but the nurse and his teacher of my kindergartener say i need to get little brother looked at too we think he has the same thing its not a disease its a syndrome and i'll get him to the doctor as soon as they see me so back to big brother who has a helper and i can begin to breathe now i have forgot the house what a mess it is and be the yard looks rugged and the shrubs are 12 feet tall my roses are ready for a good pruning and i need a mower to mow i did i bought one and the lawn looks a charm it took me a month but i have my front yard back and i have been cleaning and trying to keep things in order the house is covered in papers and mail and reports and doctors notes and stuff and more stuff and drawings and some joy out of this all then the door handle breaks off the van and my daughter is embarrased to be in it oh well i cant fix it not going to worry bout it either not at all too much other stuff going on my older son started occupational therapy outside of the school so he can get an hours worth of therapy and then it was suggested i take him to vision therapy i made the call and he's in that too. my almost teen we get her signed up for softball and she's nervous at first but she's a natural and a great hit thank goodness something to boost her confidence it has been down for a bit she slams the balls and runs around the field the only thing she doesn't do is say hi to her team mates now that i have everything starting to be settled i can relax um daddy comes home in 3 weeks i have to get clothes and make the house nice i start to shop and get cute things i am shopping and shopping and return more than i keep i am counting the days and then a road block i'm in the office of the vision therapist it is the principal at 4 pm saying our para/helper is leaving tomorrow she knew she was going to go back to school but not this soon we had her a month and it took almost the year to get one and now summer is almost here what the hell now what i thought i was going to glide through to the end of this year but no screwed again oh well grin and bare it if they find someone new that thats just fine 1 more week til daddy comes home my boy made it through the week just fine even broke some reading records and he is so proud i know it's from the vision therapy yay it works so this week on monday occupational therapy on tuesday we shop and wednesday chelseas appointment and thursday my 5 yr old is supposed to stay after school the teacher brings him to the lunchroom and he waits for a minute and then the speech therapist comes and picks him up but thats not how it happened and he was put on the bus i knew they messed up but i didnt call i had things to do and this plan isnt working out the special ed teacher called me in 20 minutes do you have your son yes i do thank goodness and i continue to shop nobody told me they had changed around their schedule and one of the teachers was out for 2 weeks and my son would have been in the recess if he was there but he wasnt so then later i bring my 7 yr old to his vision therapy and then survivor that night its the only show we all watch together on the couch and friday half day for the almost teen and still no calls from the school wow thats good and then softball practice at 6 until730 and come home after 2 parfaits a chicken sandwich meal and 2 big kids meals for the boys plain double cheeseburger i forgot something for me i eat my daughters fries i go home and wait til tomorrow which is today but last night we were up late my husband online he turns on the camera and my daughter and i cry and boys push the keypads and fill the message box with nonsense and giggle and laugh we were all up til midnight and not its today tomorrow he flies home on british airways only for 2 weeks but thats ok he is going to be shock and amazed at our kids he might need ear plugs the kids like to sing i am sure it will be pleasant noise to his ears dare i go hide in the room and cover my head and sleep and take a nap while they play
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